Zero

Zero was
this idea the Arabs had
of not-quite-infinity
but back to before we knew
The Promise of Something
This Zero holds the space
before the blossoming
into cataclysm.
It is the moment before the Universe.
It was when we were all friends of God.
The Zero said "So it was
And shall be forever."
"In my Emptiness, I am Full
and
You always return back to me."
Zero is the holding in your hand
of things you cannot hold.
12/28/11

Tinker

I am tinkering with things
Making experimental sounds now
To replace breath and all the words we use for normal things
Art to replace the heart
Whether it breaks or
Tears or
Buoys up or
Understands the concept of solitude.
Movement, to replace
The pedestrian bump and grind
Constructions and concoctions to honor
An elusive modernity.

I am slightly more free
And there is a little more of me
Scattered for posterity.

Play.
12/21/2011

Break the Vessels

As day shatters into night
So there were pinpricks upon the universe
Then, holes in our theory
Time had a place and
There was finally a point, alpha and omega
And we were everywhere
And the God who was holding me hostage--
I told him to go home
in his fucking clown suit
as I wrestled down my brother for the kill and said
"We will have a second time over
but during this one
I will have to look into your eyes when I do it."
Our only conscience was ourselves.

Break the vessels
Open the portals to tormenting devils
Slack-mouthed preachers intoning in just the right wavelength for ceremonial brainwashing
In this ending, I still pull your gold teeth out for money
And piss on your partially incinerated corpse, it being attired only in hijab
But this time, there is no flag behind me, no army
No inflated sense of righteousness;
Just the proper amount of sense that we all made in the first place
To force us fully
To understand
Exactly how
We run,
Knock-kneed
To our petty, shit-covered death.

12/21/11

Stars

Stars

"Take me up to the top of the city."- Kate Bush

We strain our eyes hard
To see stars
In the city
But the lights of urban glory-cathedrals
Have pushed them out.

Follow me
We'll look off the edge
And pretend it isn't a plunge.
Our strength lies
in steel skeletons.

12/21/11

You Can Never Go Backwards

Staring into black liquid now

before the spark appears

it’s dark

but just in time

to see pictures

of all that could be.

Season of lights

Reflections from within

we contemplate

to create

close the eyes

shut out the din

And walk.

Walk forward.

12/16/2011

Half (Deny, Refuse and Bar the Doors)

Half

"You are half of one of them," he said.
I replied to him defensively, as if he had violated my inner pride:
"How did you know?"
If the time came, I would not be one of them
And I would not give shelter if they were rounded up,
I have the marks that make me not-one
Yet you see and say, as if nature knows.
I perceive that
I am enough to pass.
I beg of you, don't give me away
For I tell you, this half has not formed
The me I am today.

12/2/11